Geez now I know what is lacking.
MY ENGLISH. I need to
eat more books and dramas. Wish me luck guys, for my "meals".
Because it is a petty March, I came across this
one drama. *
You know what, learning life in front of screen while munching popcorn isn't actually a bad habit.
It's about a woman, who suddenly got diagnosed with bile cancer.
After struggling with so much creepy pains and ridiculous exhaustible chores for 10 years, suddenly death awaited in front saying hello.
What makes it different, is that the story really got me absorbed with the whole situation.Because she dreams what a normal girl dreams on.Supposedly.
I want to fall in love, to get married and having kids. At least, I want to live. Until then, please let me live.
Before she died, she made a "20 things to do before I died" list. Only this time, no 'married' word mentioned, not even 'kids'. Because she knew she can never make it in time.
Simple things, that
God can grants, she thought.
No.1 - Make her mom, smile at least once a day.
No.20-Die in the arm of the person she love.
It's a beautiful story about a woman
welcoming her death by making her last days unregrettable.It isn't a story that teaches you to give up on faith straightly after knowing you're counting the minutes to die, but how she accepted the fate, and decided firmly to be grateful on life. Even for a very short while.
She wore on clothes she never dreamt on to even buy, devoured on meals that cost thousands in exclusive restaurants, treated her mom to spa, and even sent her for a vacation.
She made people who bullied her back then in 10 years of her tormenting life to apologize with sorry on her feet. She wanted to taste anything's possible in every slit turns of life of everyday's whimsical doings that she used to hold back.
She turned out to be a brand new woman. Not afraid, not holding back, not gritting her teeth anymore. She wanted to show the world, that a low level employee too, needs to be treated fairly. She wasn't remniscing about yesterday, "what have she done after all these years" kind of thinking, but presenting on tomorrow making them the greatest gift.
She might looked silly and eccentric, but how much silly was she, if she chose happiness over worry?
She always mumbled "I'm afraid" to the doctor who happened to be her classmate in primary school.
Too scared tomorrows wouldn't be hers anymore,she treated her 'todays' appreciatively like there'll never be next to arrive anymore. Like a priceless jewel that needed to be polished heartily.
And it'll be impossible for me, as a watcher, not to ask myself.
What would I do, if I'm in her shoes?
Will I face the music gracefully just the same as her?
The whole circumstances may sounded simple and cliche in dramas, but how simple is that, if Mr. Malaikatmaut come to greet you in real life?
The pumping heart,wouldn't forever beating.
Al Fatihah, to our Mujahideen in Gaza and Syria and Afghanistan.
Continuing having "meals",
Tuna.
