For you, kerana Allah :)

Ketika hati ini diuji, bukan kita tidak tahu dunia memang sebegitu?

Berat, hanya Allah yang mampu membebaskan.

Sedih, hanya Allah yang mampu melepaskan resah.

Susah, hanya Allah yang tahu ukur peritnya.

Yes, it's killing inside. Which supposed to be fatal. And suicidal.

Bantu aku sahabat, hanya itu yang mampu terluah di bibir.
Sedang hati sangat tahu, "tiada siapa yang dapat bantu aku, melainkan engkau Tuhan."

Menangislah, dan teruskanlah menangis wahai hati.

Allah sedang mentarbiyyah hatimu yang Dia pilih.

And yes. You are the chosen one. We're. You and me. And her.And her too. And them. Us.

How I wish I could hold your hand, take a leap and bring you to the end of this sorrow.
How I pray we could be strong and leave the unwanted dreams behind.
How I can embrace your soul, and tell you everything will be okay.

How much I want to tell you  and show you how I love you my friend, His love is more immense. And meaningful.

Me too, breaking inside, wondering the tomorrows.

Me too, crashing slowly, within His will, upon the problem He prepared for me.

We end up facing lost and grieves.

But darling. No. There's nothing we end up losing. All of those belong to Him.

Semua Dia punya. Love, feelings, future, life and Iman.

Only this time, I'll make sure we stand up again, stronger than ever, to gain His love. That's the first and ongoing mission.

Hati tahu semua itu susah, nak masuk syurga, tak percuma sayang.

Bayarlah dengan dunia, sesungguhnya itu satu perniagaan yang paling beruntung di sisi Allah.

Hari ini Dia hilangkan satu MIMPI indah dalam diari hidup kita.

Rupanya Allah merencanakan REALITI yang lebih manis dari cerita semalam.

Yakinlah. Yakinlah dan tetap juga yakin. Sehingga akhir nafasmu, yakinlah Allah cinta kepadamu.

A Journey to Hell

Assalamualaikum. I'm still writing, even there's no one reading. Because me too, wanting to have my cowardly voice to be written soundly in this medium called blog.

You've been there? I mean Hell. The English term for An-Naar isn't enough to describe what's the immense and indescribable fire's all about.

Al-Naar, I've been introduced to the land where screaming and blood and all those scenes on Final Destination 123456 etc etc have to offer was less than a dust compared to the vast misery Allah prepared for the unbelievers.

It was the night I told myself, 'are you in the right place to take sins so lightly, Madihah?' Ustaz a.k.a the host of the night as well, keep repeating the word we we and we. I couldn't help, but imagine the bad ending of my ever after, if I keep playing like a child, gambling to do everything so lightly, and say, Takpa, esok masih ada what kalau nak taubat?


It was the night of desolation and suffering. It was like a trip. A school trip. To An-Naar. But Rasul S.A.W once said, whatever you heard about it, you picture about it, you imagine about it, IT WASN'T IT. Because Allah has prepared the most unthinkable reprisal for the Sinners. What a speechless approach.

The candle was small, shorter than my index finger.By the time it was lighted, the fire almost eat up  my finger.

Ustaz kept asking,

"If you could stand this candle until it is entirely melt, keep on holding. But if you couldn't you can put out the light. If you are afraid of this tiny splint, then how come are you going to meet HIM with HIS soldiers PREPARING TO BURN YOU DOWN THERE IN NAAR?

And I cried.