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Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hope. Show all posts

Friday, April 12, 2013

Ever enough.


Perfect. This is perfect. Everything that Allah is giving me is fitting. 

He showed me puzzle so that I can solve the pieces. 
He showed me labyrinth to strengthen  my faith in pacing my steps. 
He showed me hidden scars for me to put antiseptic before they turn into plague.
He gave me hints for me to plan.
He make me sad to show me He's always there,
He prepared me doubtful journey for me to make Him my only hope.
He let me in the dark to tell me the price of a single light.
He suffocate my breath telling me He's always be my oxygen.
He push me away from my track to make me dodge an unseen bullet.

I'll always and always be, going to have endless efforts, to feel Your love, in everything You'd decided for me for my life. And the dramas between it. 










Thursday, March 28, 2013

You taught me something.



This one of a kind, I treat it as a sincere post. As usual.

The first time I saw you, I sensed it in your voice.
How was it sounds like? 

Your voice, 
filled with a sentiment pedigree of desire to reach. 
The destination that you could see before your eyes. 
It seemed like the courage is always there, 
in your vein, 
so familiar, 
like a long-lost longing.


How could you be so sure? I'm asking myself, reflecting your attitude as a simple answer.


And now, I can see it in your glittering eyes.

You never had doubts, in reaching your dreams.
You never loose confidence, as conceived.
You never hesitate, to say Amen, whenever they wish you good luck.

And why can't I do the same?

Because you always prepared, knowing where your feet will stand.
Because you never care, if people said that you're only playing a childish dare
Because you can see, not only with your perception and judgement, but with all your heart.

And why can't I do the same?

You're running fast, approaching your mark.
You're trusting hard, like nothing can ever stop you.
You're sweating gold, because you believe it'll end up good.

And why can't I do the same? 

Like a traveler of an unknown land, I bet you'd still carry on even if you lost your map.
Because your navigation and instincts are just too pure.
Like a clover leaf hidden by a field of grass, your determination is one which very hard to find in others
Like a throne for the winner, you make your mission seemed irreplaceable.

And why can't I do the same?

To dream a dream like a real dreamer. Because real dreamers are so like you, they fight for it.
And for me, I want to do the same.


No more doubts and what ifs when we start believing.









p/s: To you who inspires


Friday, December 9, 2011

Hitam Putih






Sebelum terbang, izinkan saya berbahasa melayu.


Ramai atau tidak, bilangan bukan urusan. Tapi iulah mereka. Kawan yang aku akan kata
SELAMAT TINGGAL. 

Sudah tiba masanya untuk kita berangkat,rakan.

Sudah saatnya kita mencari apa yang selama ini kita pinta dalam hati.
Bukan dunia jadi taruhan,tapi biarlah akhirat yang menjadi tujuan.


Selama ini kita berjemaah,tapi hari esok kita Imamah. 
Imamah buat umat, Imamah buat hati-hati mereka yang masih bingung.


Maaf dan terima kasih semua kutuju buat saudara saudariku.

Siapa tahu hari esok ada
tanganmu yang menyambutku dari tergelincir.
Tergelincir untuk ke neraka.

Ya, itulah doa. Doa kalian buatku. Dan doaku buat kalian. Senjata kita, senjata paling rahsia.


Sudah tiba waktunya teman
Untuk kita keluar menyebarkan Salam

Bukan untuk menjadi makhluk yang kononnya sempurna, seolah untuk mempamer apa yang dilebihkan oleh Tuhan buat kita.

Tapi bersamalah mereka. Pautlah hati dan tangan mereka.
Bagaimana kau pernah membawa aku mengenal Tuhan,
mereka juga ingin merasa nikmat yang sama.




Ya, WAKTU itu anugerah Tuhan.
Tapi apa yang menghiasi waktu itu adalah kamu.
Di sini aku belajar percaya.







Pada Tuhan

Pada janji

Pada balasan

Pada keburukan

bukan 
pada KESEMPURNAAN








Kulihat cermin. Mata itu tidak lagi kesunyian seperti lima tahun yang lalu. 
Kina warnanya silih bertukar warna. 
Sedih menangis memberontak marah kemaafan anugerah tawa dan cinta. 
Kalianlah yang mengisi mata itu.






Kau ajarkan aku untuk menerima. 
Dan apa yang lebih bermakna, kau tunjukkan aku bagaimana untuk memberi.



Setiap detik,kisah kita tercatat. 
Bukan pada kertas kajang atau buku nota sains.


Tapi dalam hati. 



Buatku,jalannya belum pasti. Entah berduri, hujan mahupun matahari terik.

Mungkin waktu seperti itulah aku akan menangis.

Mengenang coretan lampau.










Kalau semalam aku bermimpi

Hari ini realiti menjelma.

Bukan tentang indahnya memori,tapi susahnya untuk mecipta memori yang sama seperti semalam.










Selamat tidur cerita semalam. 
Kerana aku ingin melukis di atas ruang yang masih kosong itu.



Friday, September 30, 2011

Birthday girl's sayings

THANK YOU for the best wishes. I don't have high hopes for a lavish celebration. Your prayers for my best are more than enough. Determined to live gracefully for what i've been fated to deserve, thank you Allah for letting me live till now. Birthday isn't there to be celebrated, it was there to remind how you should ask yourself how well do you have been settle in his very own world,eh?

I'm not here to act wise.
Maybe I can't create any kind of magic that somehow can dissect a rainbow

Because every part of me lingers the word 'plain'


Thanks again for all of you that wish me for my better day. Thank you for remembering my existence in this vast world. For noticing my invisibility. Even though I'm that transparent slowly all of you held out your hands and teach me to colour my self a little bit. May God bless people like you. For bring the slightest hints that i'm not a burdensome to you.

When i want to create my own room,you slowly unlocked my heart by remembering that humble day. Thank you. And thank you God, for teaching me to be kindly grateful in whatever happens. 


And for those who didn't even remember my birth date. I love you too. Because friends like you teach me how my life is simply not that perfect. For me how i'm being undone through our friendship.

You make me learn,how myself is not being good enough in treating you as friends. I'm sorry for my shortcomings. I'm sorry my habits and gestures make you enlist me as unimportant person. I'm sorry I make you forget. I'm the one who's wrong. I'm the one who deserve anything you served me for. 

Yet,I just want to tell you thank you for being there for my last birthday as a highschooler. 




  1. Insyallah Allah and prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h
  2. Mom dad family siblings. They're my very first sensei
  3. Friends-you girls are awesome enough ( I'm yearning to be thankful)
 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :)

Thank you Ummi for willingly endure the pain of introducing me to this land in that one fine day. The land of weird things happen.


Birthday isn't about cakes and celebrations. Nor wishes or presents. It's about the day where you should sit back and ask yourself, how did you spend all those years behind through ups and downs of the journey. On how much you appreciate life close to heart.
 




Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Love letter

In the name of Allah,the most gracious the most merciful

Dear Madihah,

You,must love each other any from your clan,entire humans

Be,you like the Sun who never choose to whom will it shines for
Because you've been created by the Ar Rahman,the Most Gracious.

He who never-endingly spills us His blessings every single night and day
He,who owns the graciousness most perfectly,flows the kindliness without any further exception

May you know my dear,if you could gather the loves He gave you on the whole,and what might be true,that's only one part of His blessing,though He kept 99 parts more close to Him.
Then,that's really showed you how immense His love for you,shines without cease.

So as for you dear,light up your care and kindliness for each among yourselves sincerely.



Dear Madihah,


Love your parents,family,friends and your brothers and sisters of Islam as a must.Love them as much as you love for yourself.
Because how our Creator is Ar Rahim,the Most Merciful for the moment you've heard the whispers of care and love,in your mind you must be thinking how this world've been created for us Muslims to spread the good deeds.

Shall you my dear,imitate the way He flows the mercy for His creation.


Dear Madihah,


Every time you starts your chore,you've been taugh to utter Ar Rahman, Ar Rahim.
 For sure,there'll be no other reason except for your heart may be filled with love and graciousness.

Then,show your mercy and graciousness with good deeds and speaking to all the people who surrounds you.You shall always longing for His love.May your life filled with kindness ;D


That's why my dear,love and obey with the thought of merciful,
spreads the kindliness for the thought of graciousness.Then,there you shall be the king, king of your mind and soul.

In order becoming the king,you shall never forget to be the one with the pure heart.
The one who wouldn't own any importance except obeying Him.
Because somehow nevertheless you've been created by Al Quddus,the Most Holy.

For the moment you was born,how your heart was so pure,because the sanctity of your soul was created by the Most Holy.
Then,my dear,constantly you must listen for the whispers of holiness in your heart that'll soon shall purify your heart,mind and soul.