Birthday girl's sayings

THANK YOU for the best wishes. I don't have high hopes for a lavish celebration. Your prayers for my best are more than enough. Determined to live gracefully for what i've been fated to deserve, thank you Allah for letting me live till now. Birthday isn't there to be celebrated, it was there to remind how you should ask yourself how well do you have been settle in his very own world,eh?

I'm not here to act wise.

Maybe I can't create any kind of magic that somehow can dissect a rainbow

Because every part of me lingers the word 'plain'

Thanks again for all of you that wish me for my better day. Thank you for remembering my existence in this vast world. For noticing my invisibility. Even though I'm that transparent slowly all of you held out your hands and teach me to colour my self a little bit. May God bless people like you. For bring the slightest hints that i'm not a burdensome to you.

When i want to create my own room,you slowly unlocked my heart by remembering that humble day. Thank you. And thank you God, for teaching me to be kindly grateful in whatever happens. 

And for those who didn't even remember my birth date. I love you too. Because friends like you teach me how my life is simply not that perfect. For me how i'm being undone through our friendship.

You make me learn,how myself is not being good enough in treating you as friends. I'm sorry for my shortcomings. I'm sorry my habits and gestures make you enlist me as unimportant person. I'm sorry I make you forget. I'm the one who's wrong. I'm the one who deserve anything you served me for. 

Yet,I just want to tell you thank you for being there for my last birthday as a highschooler. 

1. Insyallah Allah and prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h
2. Mom dad family siblings. They're my very first sensei
3. Friends-you girls are awesome enough ( I'm yearning to be thankful)

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :)

Thank you Ummi for willingly endure the pain of introducing me to this land in that one fine day. The land of weird things happen.

Birthday isn't about cakes and celebrations. Nor wishes or presents. It's about the day where you should sit back and ask yourself, how did you spend all those years behind through ups and downs of the journey. On how much you appreciate life close to heart.

 

The difference

You can count your passed days and reminiscing all the yesterdays and (you should) be grateful because up until now you still are able to inhale those dusty air and create another history of your own. You can close your eyes and smile or cry out of nowhere. You can follow your foot rhyme and dance while remembering the songs that lift your days into cloud nine. You can crush the mirrors and spit some harsh words for the the bygone that pissed you into hellish figure.

But you can never add or subtracts any fact that they had been part of your stories.Those cries and hurts.Those dull and phlegmatic seconds you need to kill and the otherwise jumpy moments.All the parts that you left behind are responsible enough making who you are right now. People are dressed by their histories and bygones because they do change and don't just simply ageing.

And what is more interesting is that future is never be there to be calculated. Human do expect and count on them to make him or her a better man. Never hold high hopes for everything will turn out the way you've planned. 

That's the fatal difference on what's making a journal or a diary.

Planner,holds various kind of  imaginative wisdoms to be finished and yet diary  carries all the finishing storyline of the day. And finished does not necessarily mean completed,instead it contain the meaning of ending of situations either they are successively done or the other way round.

Tomorrow never tell any truth 

but yesterday never let you lie about the truth.

Yesterdays are filled by varied colour

 but tomorrow is still empty and ready to be painted.

Tomorrow is the most mysterious evidence to be searched

And yet yesterday had been explored

Don't keen too much for tomorrow to arrive earlier than it had to be

Because once it done,you can never turn back (only look back)

So you can choose either to fill up your paper by arranging the words of yesterday or tomorrow :D