Rindu

How to define it exactly? This very disturbing feeling sometimes you wish it wasn't there when you have so much things going on and sometimes you're thankful it was there when you feel filled with it.

It all started this way. Whenever, either you notice it or not, you actually begin with allowing that person to become part of you. It's not about how much it took up the space inside of you, even there's the slightest intimacy, believe me, you actually had done it. Simple.

And why is this longing feelings engulfing?
Because "that" part of you is wandering around, far, and sometimes they gone, making you lose track.
You miss that person, because there is a sense of belonging knowing they are parts of you. Of course, bits and pieces inner side of you is scattering around, it's very uncomfortable. Sometimes you gotta be far with your loved ones, sometimes you have to let go of past memories which make you trapped.

To miss something that is real, is a good sign. Because when you live apart from your soul being far away, you tend to grow. You learn not to give up easily, dreams beyond ordinary, and diligently working on something that you believe on- Love.

However if you miss something so unravelling, like memories, imaginations, or a stagnant figure, you'll got stucked. It's awful to miss something that you know will never come back, like a ceaseless ghost.

Whether it is real or manipulative, both can be painful. Only what makes the different is when you miss reality, at the end of the day, those pain can still be rewarding, because that's all you fight for. Nevertheless, an imaginary journey could cause mindless hurtings only to find out at the end of the day, you're actually caging yourself up in a prison. A prison you choose to build yourself.

If you choose anyone or anything to give your heart to, choose wisely. Because that's the rule of life, that when you give, you'll miss it. Because it's yours in the first place.